Humbled

Well, I was cast in Humble Boy as Felix Humble at Ross Valley Players. I had wanted to do this role ever since I saw the season announcement for the theatre, but I 've been talking myself out of it ever since. Was it fear? Fear of failure? Of success? Fear of contacting some truth about myself?

After I was told by the director that I got the part, I found my self in a very odd state. I wasn't excited about the opportunity, but overwhelmed. I felt a sense of confirmation about my ability as an actor, the enormous work it will take to play this part, and a sense of gratitude that no matter how hard I tried to get out of it, my soul got what it wanted.

I wanted this part because I knew it would push me into new territory. I can not perform this part the way I used to. The only way to work on it is to follow the truth that it unfolds in me. I am not thinking about how "I" will play the party, but how the part will reveal itself to me. How much truth can I find? How much truth can I handle? The part is great, and I am humbled by it.