Reality is not Linear

Every now and again, when I'm acting, I have this acute awareness of the past or future. Like all of sudden I'll be in the scene and I'll feel like I'm performing in front of an audience. I'm not referring to those moments of self-consciousness, where you think and worry about the presence of the audience. Rather, it's like I've tapped into something greater. The ritual aspect of saying the same lines with relatively the same gestures awakens me to the depths of space. The space itself contains all events past and present. The future audience becomes present now.

There are other times when, in the midst of the rehearsal, just by looking at the achictecture of the theatre, I step into the past. Away from computers, TVs, cell phones, etc., everything simplifies. I feel like I'm at the turn of the previous century. I feel a sense of everyone whose passed through the theatre and performed on its stage. History become a living presence. I feel at home.